Weight and English

Today my English instructor asked to the class a video of each student talking about something for two minutes. It had to be a video, not just our voices, so I panic!!! Why??? You have no idea how fat I am!!! Oh my gosh!!! I could not imagine to watch myself speaking English in a video. And worse, the instructor also asked me to post the video here in my blog!!!! no way!!!! It is too much for me!!!! :):):)

I recorded my video and while I was watching my mind was talking to me: Renata, now you see how much you need to lose weight??? 

And I answered  to myself: yes, it is time to take a position.

But my fat was not the main problem in the video. After watch the video slowly to make a transcription I have come to the conclusion that my English is worse than I thought :(

No, I am not exaggerating!!! I am serious!!! When I am talking I really believe that I am speaking more correct than incorrect, but the transcription showed me that even though people can understand what I am saying, most of my sentences structures are incorrect. 

It is complicated when your mind translates your language to English, because often it would be wrong. The ideal would be think in English before open the mouth; however, if your are in this level I am sure you are speaking better than me.

The goal now is to improve conversation recording more videos and making more transcriptions.
I hope to lose weight for the next recordings :)